Saturday, October 31, 2026
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The Journey

Thoughts, feelings and experiences since losing my precious angel.

Still Waiting

Two years ago Tanner was feeling independent and went for a walk. The Irvine Police immediate sprung into action when Tanner turned up missing. Five cops...

God Bless His Heart

God knows my limits. After my precious Tanner died of heart failure I knew two things to be...

Lost Memories

I lost my memories. My baby died. It's the worst of all imaginable pains. It's not possible to quantify the size of the wounded heart of...

I Gotcha

Today is supposed to be a celebration. Eleven years ago today, on Cinco de Mayo, Travis joined our family as a three-year-old. It's his "Gotcha...

Two Months

Two months ago tonight you became my angel. But then, you were always my angel. . . Tanner, my precious baby, I love you. I so desperately miss you...

Delaying the Inevitable

I'm on #143. I think. I've found 143 ways to delay planning my baby's Celebration of Life. If I don't do it, it's not really real. This...

Living Every Mom’s Dream

I was living every mom's dream. Moms, you know that magical age around three or four where your children are potty-trained but amazed by everything,...

Thank you!

Tanner says, "THANK YOU!" Or at least I know he would if he were here. Sorry this is delayed in coming but thank you to everyone...

LVLKTNR

Baby boy in Heaven... You lived. You loved. You sang loudly. You smiled joyfully. You hugged everyone. You danced without reservation. May we all live -- and love -- a little...

Glimpsing My Angel

Every day, I leave him again. Today marked my first return to the beach since I lost my Tanner. The beach was one of his favorite...